Until a short while ago the quark was believed to be the smallest possible particle of matter or a particle that could not be broken into smaller parts.
Recently a clumsy scientist believes that he broke one, leaving us asking the question, 'what is the smallest part ?'
This may seem to have nothing at all to do with my problem of 'the infinity of space' but, of course, it does.
My mind had to cope with either the vastness of the universe or the vastness of nothing, both equally scary concepts.
I wondered if our solar system might actually be an atom and along with the systems of the millions of other stars that we see (atoms), form a part of the molecular structure of some larger dimension.
When we consider the ever popular 'Big bang theory' the possibility begins to make sense.
What if all of the observations our scientists have made over the past few hundred years on the expansion and contraction of the universe was nothing more than viewing the results of a match being lit by some larger form of life, from inside ?
We see the initial hardness of the match head followed by its ignition and the subsequent rapid expansion of its gasses and then the contraction of this matter as it cools.
While you can change matter, by the way, you can not destroy it.
Don't you dare go away yet!
With the blankets still over my head I needed a quick fix and, for my sanity, I found one.
It was obvious, to me, that all that we see and perceive in the sky is no more nor less than the basic building blocks of a larger dimension.
Our solar system, I concluded, was a part of a larger dimension with the capacity to support intelligent life.
It must surely follow, then, that if our solar system is no more than an atom, our atoms could well be capable of supporting intelligent life.
I finally conceded that, as there was a far larger form of life and a far smaller form of life, I need do nothing more that write 'Dear Grandpa Pencil' and hope that they are smarter than what we have come to know here on earth.
If a molecule is just a small part of Earth and an atom is just a small part of a molecule, an atom is just a small building block and everything that these building blocks make up is obviously so vast that it impossible to see or perceive.
Some years ago my very best friend told me that the only thing wrong with me was the fact that 'I thought I was the centre of the universe'. It wakes me up at night. "If not me, then who ?", I wonder.
Oh! yes, the quark.
In the event that we form a part of the atomic structure of a larger dimension, one would have to conclude that life could exist on the particles of everything that surrounds us here on Earth.
Every atom would have the potential to have planets with oceans bordered by sand and, as we know, the sand would be made up of atoms making the search for the smallest particle of matter quite pointless.
This rather ill-considered escape mechanism has left me with only one problem. Am I responsible for the squillions of lives that could exist within my body ? If so, how ? Can I make them all tidy their rooms ?